Our time here appears predisposed to complication. I find myself reminiscing recently about the relationship that I've had with my father and how our most recent interaction has seemingly... no... has truly changed a great deal of my perspective significantly regarding his existence. And a lot of the disdain that I accomplished and accrued regarding him was significantly due to ignorance of things.  Some of those things thanks to his not telling, and some of those things thanks to my not asking.  But all in all, i recognize that the ultimate benefit here is that both he and I have arrived at a place, a new place in relevance to self development, self actualization.  In regard to understanding ourselves individually.   

My achieved understanding after so much talking and emotional interactions between my father and I, is that I didn't have the foresight enough to know this specific thing would happen.  The one thing that actually saved my ass and my mind, most importantly, was my belief that life is not meant to get simpler, or easier, it is meant to become more complicated, more complex.  

From the time you are born, you are engaged with adversity, challenges, opposition, choices.  And I don't choose to believe that it got easier.  I choose to believe that I got better at handling the complications.  Some people would say same for the same here, but in this world full of semantics and rhetoric, this specific poise on this topic is of the utmost cruciality.   

Can I Get a Witness?!?!?!?!?!